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Othello Von Ryan ([personal profile] thepurpleone) wrote2022-10-17 04:52 pm
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"You're conversing with Donatello-

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Just kidding, you got my inbox bu~t if you leave a message I will get back to you as soon as I possibly can."
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-16 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Mikey hunches in on himself a bit more]

Sorry. I dunno what's going on in everybody else's heads, but um. We're just thirteen, y'know? I don't really think about that very much back home because Master Splinter is always there to back us up and we had a new lair to be home after the mousers destroyed the old one, but everything is so big, here. And I don't just mean tall, I mean... I don't know... Important. It's not just the foot clan or whatever stealing stuff and being weird, or Karai and Leo having their weirder thing, it's big stuff.

[A shrug, and gnawing at his lip for a few seconds] You didn't do anything wrong. I think everybody is just scared. I get scared a lot, so... I get it. Maybe they're afraid of losing you when you all just found each other. I guess.
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-16 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
You're... what? [He had to stop there and press his face harder into his knees because that felt like getting smacked with vertigo. He'd known they were all different sizes than he was and stuff, but...] Y-you guys are how old? Really? That's just- I-

[He didn't know what to say or say or feel. They were supposed to match. They were his brothers, but not, and now they were all bigger than him, too? It didn't feel fair. His lower lip wobbled. He stopped and swallowed and gave a little laugh of his own, though it was admittedly strained, and changed the subject even though it was to one that was even worse ]

I... yeah. I feel like that back home. I get it. Back home, Leo's the leader and all mister strategy and Splinter Junior like Raphie calls him, Raph is all strong and does his stuff where he goes above the sewers all the time with Casey, you're the one who designs smart stuff and always knows what to do when we get stuck with technology or friggin, Stockman again, so...

Yeah. I get it. I get that wound up feeling in my chest at wanting to prove I'm not just... the extra brother. But it sounds like stuff is even worse here than it gets at home, and Leo almost- He almost died once back home. [His voice catches and wobbles, remembering that]

I dunno what the answer is. But... it's okay, being frustrated and stuff. I know I've thought of running off to do my own like, superhero kinda thing back home sometimes too, so it going that bad must feel... awful. Sorry.
Edited 2023-10-16 08:13 (UTC)
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-16 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mikey gapes at their not all being the same age, weren't they all babies together? That's how it works, right? But apparently not everywhere]

[Even worse, Mikey didn't realize the mistake he'd made at first, not until he trails off to notice that Donnie was hugging the dragon, and- And Mikey slowly rewinds what he'd said and blanches, realizing what he must've done]

Oh crud oh crud, Don, I didn't mean to-

[He starts to reach out towards Donnie but stops partway there, his hand hovering for a few seconds before he lets it fall] I shouldn't've- [His face crumples, and he drew back. His own Leo or Donnie or heck, even Raph would've known what to do. He was always screwing up, and he doesn't know how to fix it. If it were anybody else, he'd have offered a hug, but Donnies didn't like those...]
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-16 06:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mikey shifts at that and crawls closer than he had been before, and hesitantly rests a hand ever so lightly on the back of Donnie's shell, ready to take it back if it isn't wanted. He's not used to Donnie having a soft shell or the possibility of things going even worse with Donnie than they already felt like, either, and the combination has him hunching all over again but he decides that it is probably definitely worth trying]

Hey, so. I know I'm not good at all that stuff you guys are, but I am good at the touchy feely stuff sometimes. Maybe not as good at hugging as that dragon is, but kinda close. If you want it. It's okay if you don't, really, but uh-
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-18 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mikey's arms are loose at first in surprise before he closes them around Donnie and squeezes him tight, tucking his face into Donnie's shoulder with a small, muffled noise of his own]

[For once, he doesn't want to say anything. Just being able to hold onto Donnie and know he is here and safe and holding onto him right back is such a comfort, such a relief, that he doesn't want to let go ever. When he is being hugged, it doesn't matter that he was younger all of a sudden or that the others weren't the brothers he was used to or that Donnie has been doing stuff on his own that makes Mikey's stomach do flips, all that matters is here and right now and knowing that they are connected in every way that matters]

[In every way that made him let out a quiet sigh dragged out from somewhere deep inside him, feeling truly at peace for one of the first times since he'd arrived in this weird place]
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-26 09:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Mikey sniffles a bit, resisting the urge to cling onto Donnie when he pulled back. Now that Donnie was asking him outright, it was harder not to think about all of the things that have been bothering him. He winces]

I- Yeah. I mean... I don't know. It just feels like...

[He hunches in on himself despite the hug and despite Donnie's reassuring presence, because...]

I've been trying to adjust and stuff like you and Leo said. I promise! But everything always feels so like... fragile here, y'know? Like if I breathe on any of you guys wrong you'll disappear, or I will, and then I'd be somewhere even worse and without you guys there, even. I don't want to be alone...
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[personal profile] ninja_in_a_boxshell 2023-10-30 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
[This explanation takes him by surprise, and despite himself, despite everything, he gives a wobbly smile] Well... yeah. Especially cause we didn't leave the sewer even more so back then. Me and Donnie used to be obsessed the most, but you know how it is, I just wanted to paint it and he was interested in why space was space and how. Leo promised he'd take there, and- and Raphie got me glow in the dark stars, when we were little and still shared one room.

Does your Raph still do that kind of stuff? It's really weird sometimes, finding out where the lines go and where they're colored in different.