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[Donnie breathes a weak laugh at that, glad it doesn't come out as a sob, but he averts his eyes anyway.]

Hah. Perfect, right.

...

...she introduced each of us. On stage to all the other brainwashed kids, telling everyone what fault she saw in us, things that we'd never meant to do on purpose. And they booed us like we were the worst people in the world...

She had these fleas that'd just- they were everywhere and she'd control people with them.

[He can't help but scratch at his arms again as he recalls the feeling.] Uuuugh there were so many, there should never be that many fleas anywhere.

Ew gross! You didn't bring any back did you? If you did we are getting this place fumigated asap.

[He folded his arms in front of him, settling further on the beanbag so he was closer to his bro without actually touching him.]

Sounds more like a cliché nightmare than anything.

....could you tell me what she said about Annie? You don't have to, but. Well, I'm a little worried about her.

I don't think so but I'd be willing to throw myself in acid just to make sure.

-oh but I wish it was just a nightmare.

[Donnie flinches at the direct inquiry about Anemone. The look that flickers across his face is a concerning one, before he buries his face in his arms.]

She wasn't with us at the beginning. The Queen said she needed more "hands-on" treatment.

[His fingers tighten over his arms, the little claw-points that he's gotten used to having rather than the usual finger stubs.]

Somehow she'd wiped Anemone's memories that when we finally did see her again, she was the same as she was when we first met her, Leo. She didn't remember anything. It was like when we met her on our trip to Don'tra and Iskwiyac never happened...

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[The look, and the explanation, felt like a weight dropping in Leo's stomach.]

So that flea queen thought Anemone's been the worst version of herself since she met us?

[He was quiet because...was she wrong? It was easy to think back on how shy and determined and optimistic Anemone has been. So certain even what little but she could do to help save her city and the forest would make a difference. But now? After everything she'd been through, she was different- and who could blame her! Losing your home, seeing your loved ones taken from you. It wasn't something that was easy to move past.

It stung to see Anemone making the same kinds of mistakes he had. Reckless, putting himself and his family in harm's way without worrying about the consequences to anyone around him. It wasn't something he was proud of, and he didn't want her to to wind up the same way. Luckily he'd had Casey to set him straight. Anemone had them, but she seemed less and less interested in listening to them.

He reached down and grabbed his phone, holding it in his hands like it was going to bite him.]

When we were helping Tech with his mission.......we found Anemone's dad.

She said she was happy! [Donnie snaps, flinching then as he tucks against himself once more.]

...that the Queen said she'd done so many things that hurt people, that made her sad. And then she used Anemone as a shield when I attacked her and said it was my fault, my punishment for not being obedient.

But after all that...Anemone still wasn't upset with her. She wanted to be happy and I can't blame her for wanting that. I still convinced her anyway, that...she can't just take out he bad memories, that they're connected to all the good ones.

Did I do the right thing..? ...I keep thinking that maybe... M-maybe it would be better, and then she wouldn't be linked with him-

[His uncertainty switches all too easily into anger. He's not sure how many are even aware of Anemone's link with the Prime. Why is it always Primes? Always Megatrons...

He barely hears Leo when he starts to mention about his own mission's findings, belatedly snapping out of that red haze. His emotions are all over the place and it's not like he'd gotten them properly settled before they'd arrived back on the R2.]

Wh-wha..? Is he okay? Where..?

Even if Anemone was happy, it wouldn't change that happened. It wouldn't make any one else less hurt, it would fix things. I mean, what would happen if she tried to go back to Don'tra and found out it was destroyed? She would just get hurt all over again.

[His grip on his phone tightened, his expression dour. He wanted Anemone to be happy to, but not like that. He was positive Donnie did the right thing.]

Not really. You know those quintessons who keep popping up....we ran into one, and it was her dad. He recognized the pendant she gave me. He didn't want to fight us, but they made him eventually.

It took some convincing but I got him to record a message for her. I thought, I don't know, it might give her some closure? If it were pops I know I would want that. I just don't know what will happen if I give it to her.

[But even so, he feels like he'd been a little selfish. But he told her. It had been tearing him apart, that she didn't remember him, or his sacrifice for her. It hurt, it still hurts thinking about it, even though it should all be okay now. Right? He just wants someone to tell him that things are okay. But maybe they aren't.]

I...I know. I know, that's ...I told her as much. I just wish she could be happy like before...

[Then maybe he can be happy like before too...

Leo's information isn't helping. Donnie's eyes widen at the revelation. Anemone's dad had been turned into a Quintesson? He stares at his brother, not sure what to do with that, and the suggestion only turns his stomach. No, he doesn't want to think of it that way, he can't deal with this- he's not sure how Anemone would take it, especially not after accepting the weight of everything again.]

I want to see her happy too, we just gotta figure out what we can do to make that happen. I'm sure it'd be worse if she didn't have you around.

[He gave Donnie a supportive nudge, the first genuine sign that Leo considered his brother a pretty good boyfriend for Annie.]

You did the right thing, bro.

[The weighing silence afterwards did not make him feel much better about his looming choice.]

I should probably just give it to her. Trust my gut.

Then why does it still feel like it wasn't..?

[Maybe it's just him again. Maybe it's all still so fresh in his mind. He hates when he has no answers and can't explain things, he can't even remember when he'd last slept or if he'd even managed to sleep at all (how long had they been gone?) and it just feels like his mind's running on repeat because it's too tired to do anything else.]

...maybe?

I...don't know.

[Leo sighed, flopping onto the beanbag chair with a defeated slump. He felt like he should have an answer, or at least pretend to have one.]

Wish I knew. Cause it was hard, I guess?

[He swung out an arm to grab Donnie's opposite shoulder, pulling him into something that was not exactly a hug given their current seating/laying arrangement, but the sentiment was there.]

Just keep being there for Annie. I think she needs you more than she'll admit.

[Especially since he had the feeling she wouldn't want to be seeing much of him for a while once he gave her the news about her dad.]

[Donnie immediately stiffens at he contact, taking a moment before managing to relax a little beneath Leo's arm. It's something, even if he finds that small comfort at odds with what seems like such a monumental responsibility. It's not that he'd ever give up on Anemone- he'd told her as much. But he just wishes that she would be able to have a break for all that keeps seeming to happen.

He nods a tiny nod, shrinking in upon himself even more, if just a little closer to Leo's beanbag as can be managed.]

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