[When he doesn't show any aversion to her touch, she keeps her hand there, running gentle circles into his neck and shoulder and over his shell. She gives him time let's him work through it at his own pace without rushing him and-- oh well. Okay. Not the lesson she was going for here but maybe she can still work with this. What were Jedi if not adaptive?]
Maybe he was.
[She makes a face. She doesn't like saying it. She doesn't like that he said it.]
Sometimes the one who have the truth are the ones we least want to say it.
But.
[She emphasizes this word very heavily. Are you listening to her Donatello?]
That doesn't mean he was right about everything and that doesn't mean he was right in the way that he thinks he should be.
[Does that even make sense? She wished Master Khoan was here. He would know a lot better what to say. Donnie's emotions were all over the place and it was hard to focus them into one, productive goal. She didn't want to stop the pain, that would take a lot more time, but if she could get him to focus, to ground, if they could get just one positive change, mindset, lesson, whatever out of this interaction. But she felt like she was backsliding.
Would she fail him too? Would she loose the closest thing she had to a friend on this ship?
What would Master Khoan say?]
Even our enemies have lessons to teach us.
[She flinches a little. Is that what Shockwave was? An Enemy? He was at the time and Anila certainly didn't consider him a friend or even an acquaintance by any means, but she was well aware that it was far more complicated for Donnie, who had seen the Cybertronian as a mentor figure, even a friend. In a way she thinks he still did, or at least that was part of the mess of emotions that were all tangled inside him at the moment. Slag this was hard and complicated and frankly, a little dumb. Why wouldn't the universe give this poor kid a break?]
Point is, it's more important how you take that lesson then how he meant it. I feel like you might be missing the point here Donnie. Shockwave wanted power. He wanted to get the information he needed by any means necessary. Those souls were just a tool to him.
We have to pick and choose our battles. Power isn't just about having the upper hand or being stronger, it's about knowing what is worth giving yourself too. You give yourself to so much, and I'm sure it's all worthy causes, but sometimes... Maybe... It could be things that other people could do too. You're just one person, Donnie, you aren't meant to carry the whole universe on your shoulders. Even if it feels like you should.
[She actually isn't sure what part of Shockwave's many little counterpoints he latched onto, as much as she would have loved to be more specific. She gives a sigh.]
And the hard truth is sometimes you'll fail. And that really sucks. That sucks a lot. Sometimes you fail where you wanted to fail the least and people get hurt. But there is balance in all things. Failure is rarely the end, especially if there is hope. You have to keep trying but balance. If you take everything on, then you'll never make it forward. Like I said, find your footing, ground yourself.
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[When he doesn't show any aversion to her touch, she keeps her hand there, running gentle circles into his neck and shoulder and over his shell. She gives him time let's him work through it at his own pace without rushing him and-- oh well. Okay. Not the lesson she was going for here but maybe she can still work with this. What were Jedi if not adaptive?]
Maybe he was.
[She makes a face. She doesn't like saying it. She doesn't like that he said it.]
Sometimes the one who have the truth are the ones we least want to say it.
But.
[She emphasizes this word very heavily. Are you listening to her Donatello?]
That doesn't mean he was right about everything and that doesn't mean he was right in the way that he thinks he should be.
[Does that even make sense? She wished Master Khoan was here. He would know a lot better what to say. Donnie's emotions were all over the place and it was hard to focus them into one, productive goal. She didn't want to stop the pain, that would take a lot more time, but if she could get him to focus, to ground, if they could get just one positive change, mindset, lesson, whatever out of this interaction. But she felt like she was backsliding.
Would she fail him too? Would she loose the closest thing she had to a friend on this ship?
What would Master Khoan say?]
Even our enemies have lessons to teach us.
[She flinches a little. Is that what Shockwave was? An Enemy? He was at the time and Anila certainly didn't consider him a friend or even an acquaintance by any means, but she was well aware that it was far more complicated for Donnie, who had seen the Cybertronian as a mentor figure, even a friend. In a way she thinks he still did, or at least that was part of the mess of emotions that were all tangled inside him at the moment. Slag this was hard and complicated and frankly, a little dumb. Why wouldn't the universe give this poor kid a break?]
Point is, it's more important how you take that lesson then how he meant it. I feel like you might be missing the point here Donnie. Shockwave wanted power. He wanted to get the information he needed by any means necessary. Those souls were just a tool to him.
We have to pick and choose our battles. Power isn't just about having the upper hand or being stronger, it's about knowing what is worth giving yourself too. You give yourself to so much, and I'm sure it's all worthy causes, but sometimes... Maybe... It could be things that other people could do too. You're just one person, Donnie, you aren't meant to carry the whole universe on your shoulders. Even if it feels like you should.
[She actually isn't sure what part of Shockwave's many little counterpoints he latched onto, as much as she would have loved to be more specific. She gives a sigh.]
And the hard truth is sometimes you'll fail. And that really sucks. That sucks a lot. Sometimes you fail where you wanted to fail the least and people get hurt. But there is balance in all things. Failure is rarely the end, especially if there is hope. You have to keep trying but balance. If you take everything on, then you'll never make it forward. Like I said, find your footing, ground yourself.